I know I'm leaving, but I don't know where to

Everyone looks to the new year for resolutions and personal change and I am not exempt from this feeling. My new years eve celebration last night was not exactly my favorite, but as I awoke this morning I was happy to note that this morning is a year different then last night and its never too early for making changes.
At the beginning of this New Year, I anticipate many wonderful happenings for 2010; change and adventure and excitement and beauty and new beginnings and also some endings. I think it is really important to be able to personally (mentally and emotionally) be able to "let go." So cliche right? But I think that everyone is so focused on their changes for the new year and are so set on what they can improve and make better that they forget to deal with the "symptoms".
Say your new year's resolution is to lose weight. You make an exercise plan and buy a gym membership and set tons of goals. Great you're set. wrong. Why did you become overweight in the first place? Do you eat because of your emotions? Do you just have bad snacking habits? If you don't deal with those internal issues first, all your planning and goal setting will fall apart and soon you'll be back at it again! (preachin it) So I am encouraging myself to let go of the negative energy or the regrets and to stop worrying so much about the future. I want to take more chances and live in the present...."Be fully present" is something I'm into right now, don't think about yesterday or worry about tomorrow the present is the only thing that you can fully control...well, most of the time.

Yesterday is gone.
Tomorrow has not yet come.
We have only today.
Let us begin.
-Mother Teresa (love her)

I have included yet another Bright Eyes (conor oberst) song because I think its definitely about new beginnings but with that new beginning comes an ending too. Sort of an unexpected "new years inspirational" isn't it?? I may be the only one who manages to grasp this correlation considering I created it, but hey its worth sharing!

I wish you all peace love and prosperity for your new year

♥ Just call me Delilah....I just seem to have all the answers don't I? ;)
ps. I hate The Delilah show.




If you walk away, Ill walk away
First tell me which road you will take
I dont want to risk our paths crossing some day
So you walk that way, Ill walk this way

And the future hangs over our heads
And it moves with each current event
Until it falls all around like a cold steady rain
Just stay in when its looking this way

And the moons laying low in the sky
Forcing everything metal to shine
And the sidewalk holds diamonds like the jewelry store case
They argue walk this way, no, walk this way

And Lauras asleep in my bed
As Im leaving she wakes up and says
I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave
Baby dont go away, come here

And theres kids playing guns in the street
And ones pointing his tree branch at me
So I put my hands up I say enough is enough,
If you walk away, Ill walk away
And he shot me dead

I found a liquid cure
From my landlocked blues
Itll pass away like a slow parade
Its leaving but I dont know how soon

And the worlds got me dizzy again
You think after 22 years Id be used to the spin
And it only feels worse when I stay in one place
So Im always pacing around or walking away
I keep drinking the ink from my pen
And Im balancing history books up on my head
But it all boils down to one quotable phrase
If you love something, give it away

A good woman will pick you apart
A box full of suggestions for your possible heart
But you may be offended and you may be afraid
But dont walk away, dont walk away

We made love on the living room floor
With the noise in the background of a televised war
And in the deafening pleasure I thought I heard someone say
If we walk away, theyll walk away

But greed is a bottomless pit
And our freedoms a joke
Were just taking a piss
And the whole world must watch the sad comic display
If youre still free start running away
Cause were coming for you!

Ive grown tired of holding this pose
I feel more like a stranger each time I come home
So Im making a deal with the devils of fame
Saying let me walk away, please
Youll be free child once you have died
From the shackles of language and measurable time
And then we can trade places, play musical graves
Till then walk away, walk away

So Im up at dawn
Putting on my shoes
I just want to make a clean escape
Im leaving but I dont know where to
I know Im leaving but I dont know where to

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